Stamping, screaming, running, squealing! I can hear my husband yelling for the tenth time: “NO RUNNING IN THE HOUSE!”

It’s 9:00am. Lord, how am I going to survive this day?!

Outside, the world has come to a halt, but that is not the case inside our house. While everything has closed due to COVID-19, our home has become a school, a restaurant, a playground, a church, and much more.

At first, there was some excitement for Mom to be the teacher (homeschooling in Germany is forbidden), for math and spelling in PJ’s and video calls with friends and family. That enthusiasm quickly vanished.

I stopped counting the number of snacks I’ve made each day. I’ve put together the right amount of schoolwork for a fifth grader, a very hyper second grader, and a preschooler. I’ve been playing doggy, folding laundry, coloring, cleaning, and wiping snotty noses and tears.

Although my calendar is completely empty and no appointments can be made, my life has never been so busy.

Shouldn’t this be a time of reflection, refocusing, Bible reading, prayer, and listening to endless sermons and worship songs?

As I sat in front of my laptop on a Sunday morning, listening to the online service our church had put together, I couldn’t stop the tears from running. In my head, I kept saying: God I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry. Even now I am too busy to spend time with You!

And it was right there when His still, loving voice touched my aching soul deeply!

The words of this song penetrated my heart:

Who am I that the highest King

Would welcome me

I was lost but He brought me in

Oh His love for me

Who the Son sets free

Oh is free indeed

I’m a child of God

Yes I am

In my Father’s house

There’s a place for me

I’m a child of God

Yes I am

I’m a child of God

Yes I am

And there He found me! He cares about my every need. He knew how much I needed to hear: My sweet daughter, you are my child no matter what!

Though the world might be upside down, my house a mess, and my soul empty, He finds me. Though a virus can leave the world in chaos, fear, and even death, our God stays unshaken and unchanging.

“Stop your striving and recognize that I am God.

I will be exalted over the nations! I will be exalted over the earth!” 

11 The Lord of Heaven’s Armies is on our side!

The God of Jacob is our stronghold!”

Psalm 46:10-11

I can’t save the world, and I don’t have to. What I can do is be still and know! If the God of Jacob is our fortress, then I am always secure no matter what environment I may be living in on earth—turmoil, war, destruction, COVID-19 — God has secured the souls of believers through His Son Jesus Christ.

For each and every one of us this time will look a little different. Kids or no kids, job or no job, loads of time, no time, I know now I set my expectations for myself much higher than God would ever set His expectations for me. In the business of this crazy time I forgot who I am – a child of God. No matter what.

If that’s you today then crank up the volume and listen to the song above. Let it slip deep into your heart.

 

Emily Dorn,

German Language Branch Leader – Germany

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