For Christ has entered, not into holy places made with hands, which are copies of the true things, but into heaven itself, now to appear in the presence of God on our behalf. Nor was it to offer himself repeatedly, as the high priest enters the holy places every year with blood not his own, for then he would have had to suffer repeatedly since the foundation of the world. But as it is, he has appeared once for all at the end of the ages to put away sin by the sacrifice of himself. And just as it is appointed for man to die once, and after that comes judgment, so Christ, having been offered once to bear the sins of many, will appear a second time, not to deal with sin but to save those who are eagerly waiting for him.” – Hebrews 9:24-28
I see you walking on the street with your head held low. You’re the girl who can’t forgive herself for that stupid mistake; that moment of weakness when you let your guard down all those years ago.
I’ve seen you rushing into the coffee shop, carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders. You’re the girl who can’t forget the pain you caused; the relationships that you damaged; the hurt that remains.
I’ve seen you hiding on that college campus, with eyes that won’t meet mine. You’re the girl who doesn’t feel worthy to look up because of the shame you still carry.
I’ve seen you struggling in the pew next to me, with tears that resurface like clockwork week after week; sermon after sermon. You’re the girl who can’t accept that there’s a God who knows everything about you, yet still loves you and offers you forgiveness once and for all.
I was you once.
I laid in my bed as a little girl, asking forgiveness for the same offense over and over because I didn’t believe it could be true. I fought past memories, past mistakes, past compromises, past thoughts, past motives. I obsessed over what I could not change, and nervously worked to replace the old with a better version of me. I spent nights thinking, rehearsing, and praying that there might be a chance that the more I offered, the more would be erased.
Exhausted. Lacking. Never done.
The priests in the Old Testament must have felt this way. “Day after day every priest stands and performs his religious duties; again and again he offers the same sacrifices, which can never take away sins” (Hebrews 10:11).
Standing. Always repeating. Never resting. Never resolving.
[Before Christ, the law called for animals to be sacrificed as payment for sin. But it was all so temporary and incomplete. Another sin committed meant another animal sacrificed. What a constant, pungent reminder of the never-ending cycle of our fallen state. And what a necessary, descriptive picture of our coming King…]
Enough.
Sit and rest, you weary. Jesus has done it, once for all.
We strive and strive apart from God, lacking joy and scrambling to live in a world opposite of what we were created for – forgetting that our Savior has come. It’s time we lay down the old and begin living in the freedom of the new:
There once were many priests. Now Christ is our one all-sufficient High Priest.
There once were many sacrifices. Now Christ is the one sacrifice who took care of our sin once for all.
There once was the constant reminder and weight of the law. Now Christ has offered complete forgiveness through His abundant, freeing grace.
There once were those who stood and strived. Now Christ sits at the right hand of God as our advocate, waiting to defend us.
Today can be different, because Jesus came and changed everything.
Lift your head weary sinner, the river’s just ahead
Down the path of forgiveness, salvation’s waiting there
You built a mighty fortress 10,000 burdens high
Love is here to lift you up, here to lift you high
If you’re lost and wandering
Come stumbling in like a prodigal child
See the walls start crumbling
Let the gates of glory open wide
-Crowder
Sit and rest, you weary. Jesus has done it, once for all.
At His feet,
*Let’s talk: Today, are you ready to lift your head and embrace God’s forgiveness – maybe fully for the first time in your life? We’d love to pray for you in the comments below…
For the past 4 years I have struggled with depression and a eating disorder. In the process I often acted so selfishly and hurt those closest to me. Things are much better than they were through God’s grace, but I still struggle with the guilt. of wrong desicions made. I know that I am forgiven and a new person, but sometimes it seems like the past keeps haunting me . I so desperately want a new perspective, I do not want to forget what Jesus has done for me.. Thank you for this beautiful post, it reminds me that we are truly free from sin, not through our own strength, but because of God’s unending grace and love.
Amen, Barbara! You are absolutely right that we are free “not through out own strength, but because of God’s unending grace and love”!
Thank you for sharing your story of overcoming your struggles. Something I heard another woman of God say once that seems to fit over and over again in my life is, if God, who is so perfect and powerful, can forgive us our sins, who are we to hold on to them? Remember that you are loved, and I pray that God will heal you to the point of forgiving yourself. Since God removes our sins…doesn’t just forgive, but forgets…then it MUST be the devil who keeps bringing them up again!
Oh Sweet Barbara, thank you! Thank you for sharing your struggles. Knowing you are forgiven and that your sins are forgotten and allowing yourself to forgive and forget just as Jesus did, that is hard. It is a daily struggle for me personally. It is also hard when you are trying to change and some keep bringing up the past, I pray daily that my actions will speak louder than my past. That people can truly see the change in me and this will lead them to the one who forgives and forgets without questions.
Thank you for this crucial reminder, so timely as the push to “succeed” often weighs heavy. JESUS paid it all and I rest in Him.
Sue, thank you for the reminder that we can rest in Him and succeeding isn’t every thing. 🙂
Thank you So much this today. I am a little bit of all those girls. I’m struggling with depression after my Dad’s death. My family is small and dysfunctional. God has carried me, set me in His family, and paid it All. I must reread this though out today, to stay focused on Him
Leslie, losing a loved one is hard. Prayers for you as you get through this time of grief. As far as dysfunctional families go, I have seen the power of prayer on those with my family. Thank you for being brave and sharing!
Lord, be with Leslie today and help her get through her struggles. You know her, you know where she needs help the most. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.
What you said about staying focused on him…that is the truth and the way to some peace in your heart and mind. Our families can be difficult, mine included, but if we pray and lean on him, and try to think about loving and forgiving each other as our father does us, we can find some peace and harmony. I pray for your heart to heal after the loss of your father and for your family to come together in love. God’s got you, you can get through this.
Mondee~LGG Ecourager
I am letting go of past seasons, I can’t take them into a new season otherwise it will be like my old season. I lay each burden at his feet and walk forward with Jesus leaving everything else behind. This is my prayer I ask that you stand in agreement with me. Amen
Jenna, a favorite quote of mine, and I can’t for the life of me remember where I saw it or who said it, but it goes something like this: You can’t move onto the next chapter of your life if you keep rereading the last. I personally struggle with rereading and analyzing and not leaving the past behind. It’s a daily struggle. My prayer daily is for help to leave the past in the past and for help to move forward and to forgive and forget for myself as Jesus has done for me.
I stand in agreement with you. I want to do this too.
I’m 62, I’ve done so many things, good and bad, some down right ugly. I’ve asked forgiveness, over and over again. I’ve repented, failed, repented again. I love this study and there is a part of me that knows I’m forgiven, I’ve asked, he has answered. He paid the price, and with tears once again I ask for forgiveness. Today is the last time. Jesus did it, he was the sacrifice for me (and for you). For: ALL my stupid mistakes, ALL the decisions that hurt others and myself, all the deplorable things. Grace and mercy for all, once and for all! Acts 13:38-39 NIV “Therefore my friends, I want you to know that through Jesus the forgiveness of sins is proclaimed to you. Through him everyone who believes is set free from every sin, a justification you were not able to obtain under the law of Moses.” Rejoicing this morning, we are set free!
Lori! Thank YOU for this! I need this reminder daily. I KNOW I am forgiven. I KNOW Jesus was the ultimate sacrifice. I just have to forgive and forget myself. That is my struggle. So, thank you for this reminder!
I’ve done so much in my life that is bad. For so many years I was like those mentioned, afraid to lift my head. I lived with shame and guilt. Then a wonderful friend helped me find my way back to God; the weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I no longer bear the weight of my sin, because Christ died for all our sins. Now when I feel joy instead of guilt. I’m a child of God! I will always regret and be sorry or my past mistakes, but it’s not the burden it once was. I’m so very thankful for God’s grace!
Laura, isn’t it a wonderful feeling? I know that I am forgiven. I know that my sins have been wash away, but for me personally I am working on the moving forward and not looking back, not continuing with the regrets. I struggle with the forgetting. I KNOW I am forgiven, but I pray daily to forget my wrongdoings and move forward. But you are right, the weight that is lifted from you when you accept the forgiveness is the best feeling. Thank you for your comment!!
Wow just the words I needed to hear. I’ve done so much bad and the one girl you explained in the beginning is like you knew how I felt. I want to be free and have joy replace the guilt. I’m at a crossroads in life so need prayers. All I know is today is a new day and this is the day I will take the forgiveness fully and not look back. I am who God says I am
Diana, today is a new day. Every day is like a blank page…and we get to choose how the story will go. With a lot of prayer I like to think I am doing a pretty good job. But then the doubt starts to creep in and so that sometimes brings me down. But with a lot of prayer and encouragement from friends and family I just keep on keepin’ on. :).
Dear Lord, you know what Diana is going through. You know what she is at a crossroads with. Help her to go the in which is best for her and what is Your will. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
Dedicating this song to each one here who has felt this beautiful message today because of the Holy Spirit within. Jesus paid it ALL, once and for all. Let us live according to His grace!
https://youtu.be/UqU_32v0R_I
Thank YOU Sheila!!
Beautiful!
Mondee~LGG Encourager
Thank you, Sheila!
Yeah! Diana!! You are who God says you are. Isn’t it wonderful. We can sit and rest as our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ has done it once for all. So beautiful. We are blessed. Thank you Jesus.
Debbie, isn’t it a wonderful feeling knowing that no matter what we are forgiven?? Oh what a glorious day it will be when He comes back for us!
Oh Whitney, such welcoming words to so many needy ears…how can we increase the outreach of this group?! The shame and guilt that come from a childhood ruled by alcohol and addiction followed me for a LONG time after I became a Christian. There were no words to describe my childhood to those who had grown up in the church, etc. OH, but He HAS redeemed that time for His glory, what Satan tried to use for evil, Jesus redeemed for good! Natalie Grant’s song “Clean” says it so well!
Pat, thank you sharing a glimpse into your past. One of my favorite songs at the moment in time is Redeemed by Big Daddy Weave:
Seems like all I could see was the struggle
Haunted by ghosts that lived in my past
Bound up in shackles of all my failures
Wondering how long is this gonna last
Then You look at this prisoner and say to me “son
Stop fighting a fight it’s already been won”
I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I’m not who I used to be
I am redeemed, I’m redeemed
All my life I have been called unworthy
Named by the voice of my shame and regret
But when I hear You whisper, “Child lift up your head”
I remember, oh God, You’re not done with me yet
I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I’m not who I used to be
Because I don’t have to be the old man inside of me
‘Cause his day is long dead and gone
Because I’ve got a new name, a new life, I’m not the same
And a hope that will carry me home
I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, ’cause I’m not who I used to be
I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, yeah, I’m not who I used to be
Oh, God, I’m not who I used to be
Jesus, I’m not who I used to be
‘Cause I am redeemed
Thank God, redeemed
Love this! Thank you so much for sharing with everyone, Paula!!!
Paula: thank you for the encouragement, really hard to share and none of my ladies seem to read the blog. LOVE that song and the one “I’m no longer a slave to fear, I am a child of God.”
So i am that girl who can’t forget the pain she’s caused,the relationships she’s damaged,and the hurt she caused others. I was in a relationship with a man who was married and now going through a “divorce”. He never truly left his wife and kept going between us and we found out one night. He kept telling me he wanted to marry me and I kept falling for it when in reality he would be with me and then go with her telling us both the same things.The crazy thing is I had been cheated on when I had been married and never thought I would be the other woman. I never told anyone because of all the shame it made me feel. The regret ,the whys,the hurt deep down. Thank you God for making me a new creation and for the grace you have given me. I know people look down on people like me but after this post i will see this as something in my past that I went through but was brought out of it by the grace and love of God. Prayers for everyone involved especially the man who was a part of this as he still continues to do what he’s done. That he find God and Gods will be done in all our lives.
Thank you so much for feeling the courage to share your story! I pray that you can leave this guilt at the feet of Jesus and move forward! We are all perfectly imperfect sinners, but God is so good that he loves us through it! I pray the burden is lifted off your heart and you find peace and feel the love of Jesus as he puts together the broken pieces. God is good!
Mondee~LGG Encourager
OH Diana, I think Big Daddy Weave’s Song Redeemed would help you too! I love this song. It is my go to song when I am feeling down and need a reminder.
Seems like all I could see was the struggle
Haunted by ghosts that lived in my past
Bound up in shackles of all my failures
Wondering how long is this gonna last
Then You look at this prisoner and say to me “son
Stop fighting a fight it’s already been won”
I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I’m not who I used to be
I am redeemed, I’m redeemed
All my life I have been called unworthy
Named by the voice of my shame and regret
But when I hear You whisper, “Child lift up your head”
I remember, oh God, You’re not done with me yet
I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I’m not who I used to be
Because I don’t have to be the old man inside of me
‘Cause his day is long dead and gone
Because I’ve got a new name, a new life, I’m not the same
And a hope that will carry me home
I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, ’cause I’m not who I used to be
I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, yeah, I’m not who I used to be
Oh, God, I’m not who I used to be
Jesus, I’m not who I used to be
‘Cause I am redeemed
Thank God, redeemed
One of my absolute favorite songs and one that I use often to remind me I am redeemed. I am set free.
Redeemed
by Big Daddy Weave
Seems like all I could see was the struggle
Haunted by ghosts that lived in my past
Bound up in shackles of all my failures
Wondering how long is this gonna last
Then You look at this prisoner and say to me “son
Stop fighting a fight it’s already been won”
I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I’m not who I used to be
I am redeemed, I’m redeemed
All my life I have been called unworthy
Named by the voice of my shame and regret
But when I hear You whisper, “Child lift up your head”
I remember, oh God, You’re not done with me yet
I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I’m not who I used to be
Because I don’t have to be the old man inside of me
‘Cause his day is long dead and gone
Because I’ve got a new name, a new life, I’m not the same
And a hope that will carry me home
I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, ’cause I’m not who I used to be
I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, yeah, I’m not who I used to be
Oh, God, I’m not who I used to be
Jesus, I’m not who I used to be
‘Cause I am redeemed
Thank God, redeemed
I’ve been a Christian for over 33 years now. And while I at one time had my head lifted and embraced God’s forgiveness, I’m not sure I’ve ever done it fully. And especially now after 23 years of marriage and 3 children, I believe I’ve gotten caught up in the “works” lie. I struggle with having confidence, as I believe the lie that “I” have to do ‘it.’ To fix ‘it.’ To be ‘it.’ Whatever the heck ‘it’ is, it’s definitely not God’s grace!!!?
Please pray that I would get back to my 1st love! Jesus!!! And to FULLY embrace God’s forgiveness, so that I can boldly, and with confidence, share THE Gospel of Christ!
Thanks!,
Kathy
Kathy, thank YOU for sharing your struggles! I pray that you fully embrace God’s forgiveness.
Dear Lord, thank you for Kathy, please be with her on her journey to embrace your full forgiveness. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
Thanks Paula!
Thank you for sharing your heartfelt story with us, Kathy! As humans, I think we all at one point or another have tried to cover our sins with good works. I pray that God speaks to you and comforts you, and you continue to share your story and God’s forgiveness with others!
Thanks Velma!
I am that girl too……during my late teenage years I strayed from my relationship with God and all that I had been taught as a child. I became involved in a relationship that was wrong for me on every level. I knew what I was doing was wrong and yet I continued. Thankfully that relationship ended a number of years later. Fast forward quite a few years and the guilt and shame I felt for my behaviour was overwhelming, I felt that I had messed up so much and blown it with God, that I could never come back to him, that he had washed his hands of me, I cried for days and out to God at the realisation of what I had done. My head was spinning with the fact that I had professed to be a Christian yet had been caught up in years of sin, how could I ever be forgiven? I am still struggling with this now and so this whole reading plan has come at just the right time for me. Thank you
Judith, isn’t it great that we are forgiven no matter what our sins are? I have strayed so far and we are human and so we are always stumbling. There was only ever one perfect person and that was Jesus and he died for us. For you. For me. Because of his great sacrifice we are forgiven, all our sins. It is a daily struggle to accept that, but we are forgiven, without strings. Thank you for sharing your story!
Thank you Paula! ?
I read this and I feel as if I’m the girl in all those parts! This really spoke to me, I am having a real tough time right now, and I don’t feel like I am forgiven or worthy of love. This is a beautiful piece, thank you!
Erin, you are worthy of love and forgiveness. So much so that Jesus was sent to die for our sins. My sins. Your sins. The one person who was sinless thought you worthy enough to die for you. This study is so amazing! Just know that you are worthy to be forgiven and loved. Thank you for sharing your fears!
Thanks Paula!!!
I once pushed sin and it resulted in some choices that had a consequences. Praise God all things were turned for his good. Because of God’s mercy and the answered prayers of many saints now living with God, I am pursuing God. However, my heart still aches and the deceiver tries to throw it in my face occasionally but I’ve decided to thank God for already forgiving me when guilt comes.
I agree with you, Sandy, in praising God for turning your troubles for good! Continue to stand strong in your faith and your God! <3
Hi. I’ve been struggling with this for several years and even though I tell myself I’m forgiven, by both The Lord and my ex husband, I still feel I am being punished somehow. I know it’s not logical but the truth is, I completely failed my marriage 5 years ago. I didn’t try to work on it. I didn’t pray for it. And I started a non physical but still inappropriate relationship with another man. I gave my husband no option but to move on with his life. He now is re-married to a wonderful woman and has a new baby which makes me know it all worked out the way it was supposed to. But I’ve kind of stood still. I’ve dated a bit. Most have been a disaster and I don’t use that word lightly. And I’ve men one man who I’ve felt love again for but I pushed too hard and now we are just friends. I feel confused and punished, if I can just be honest. I feel lonely and like I’m always hustling to prove to God that I can be trusted again. And if I’m honest, I am hustling to prove to the man I love that I can be trusted too, though he might not recognize it as that. I have days where faith is strong and days where I’m just angry, but mostly I just don’t understand why if I’m forgiven, why God won’t give me another chance. I apologize for the over share. I haven’t said any of this out loud, but I would appreciate your prayers.
B- I have a story similar to yours and have made some of the same mistakes (worse ones too)…have struggled with forgiving myself more than anything and begged God’s forgiveness more times than He ever asked me to. This study has given me the peace to finally let it go… BUT… On your topic of punishment, you asked for forgiveness from a loving God FULL of grace and mercy. I do not believe that He is punishing you…I just don’t! Satan whispers cruel, hurtful things into our ears if we let him. In my situation, I found that I did not meet my now husband until I found 100% contentment in myself and my relationship with Christ. When I was finally ok with being “alone” because I realized I never had been…when I finally gave up on men because my heart was so full and schedule busy in service, my husband dropped out of nowhere and blessed me more than I ever thought any relationship could. You’re heart wrenching comment reminded me of the time I SO yearned to be a wife again. I’ll be praying for you, Miss B 🙂 Keep your eyes up and I hope you run into what your looking for when you’re busy loving Him. He loves you SO!
I too am having these thoughts and was like God it’s hard but listen inking to these beautiful inspirational stories keeps me going I can say.
I feel as though my entire life has completely crumbled into dust and I am looking down all around me……dust,ugly dust. I have a son with Downs Syndrome we have had a really rough couple of days ( Police,etc. ) He left me at 5:00 this morning. We took him to his sister’s house ( previous marriage). He won’t come home. My mother has Dementia, I am her ONLY caretaker. I am unmarried, and I don’t know what to do. I pray, I haven’t any answers. I came very close to taking a bottle of pills. Lost forsaken. Please pray for my son. Vickie Murray
I’m so sorry Vickie. 🙁 please don’t kill yourself, you are deeply loved. I will pray for you.
Vickie…hold on…God loves you and is holding you now….hold on don’t let go ever!!
God is faithful…He will never leave you…He will be your strength…rest in Him!!! You are not forsaken….do not believe that!!!! Never believe that…you are loved, you are a daughter of the King!
Vickie, thank you so much for your transparency here! It takes a lot of courage to pour out our hearts in writing! Please know that God is with you as you face each day! You are loved by Him and by those around you (even if they aren’t able to show you in a conventional way). Lean on His strength as you journey through each new day and just take things one day, one hour, even one moment at a time and He will see you through it! One of the best things you can do for yourself to help you combat fear and negative feelings is to speak scripture. You don’t even have to have it memorized, just read it over and over again and the devil HAS TO FLEE!!! This is a great one that I kept hearing as I was typing this to you.
“He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.”
-Isaiah 40:29-31 (NIV)
I need to print out this post and tape it to my walls where I can remind myself over and over that God loves me so much that Jesus came to die for my sins! love this amazing needs to be ingrained in me every minute of every day! Thank you so much for your words!!
Agreed ! Me too
I too have fallen short of Gods glory I’m ashamed of hurting a love one deeply and felt even God can’t forgive me and or I didn’t deserve it. I have emotional ups and downs which can be toxic towards us because our emotions affect one another. I even wondered could God fix what is broken I know he can but I have doubts. The problem is that the other person is finding it hard to forgive and I’m trying to be patient but it’s hard. This happened 4 yrs ago and I felt like an idiot I was young and dumb. Now we are both in med and law school and in my last year he needed a break. It seems as if he feels that somethings just can’t be forgiven or forget but I constantly pray and wonder if I’m praying enough. I want to trust God with this situation because he felt like marriage could not occur because he didn’t really forgive he realized. So I need prayers for strength in my last year and to depend on God wholeheardlty. I believe that if God can change me he could teach this guy forgiveness.
This post hits home for me! I am a recovering addict and in my addiction I made very bad decisions and now carry a criminal record. All this happened many years ago and I just celebrated 11 years clean. I have asked for forgiveness for all of this and more, but I carry around guilt and shame and never feel worthy. And because of this I feel separated from God like how can he possibly forgive this. I know he has already and I know he loves me but I feel so unworthy. My prayer is to forgive myself and Jesus has forgiven me. Thank you again for this amazing study!
I’m trying to learn how to forgive myself for past mistakes. I feel I’m allowing the devil to torture me, because I wake up thinking about this and I go to bed thinking about it. I know that God has forgiven me but I struggle with forgiving myself. Please pray for me.
This message touched my heart. It is what I needed to hear. I have made poor choices lately and strayed from my relationship with the Lord. It took a significant scare to put me back on the right path. I felt as if you were writing about me, I have continually asked for forgiveness for past mistakes because I felt so ashamed. It is hard to fathom that asking once is enough. I want so badly to have the relationship with God that he has always wanted me to have, I don’t want to stray any longer. I am tired and weary from trying to make things happen in my life. I know if I walk with God He will give me my hearts desires and more. Thank you for the awesome writings that speak to my heart. Please pray for me, I need protection for a current situation I am dealing with and strength to not give into worldly temptations. Thank you.