It’s like he’d rehearsed this moment for years… His dreams are about to come true… He’d seen this scene play out in his mind before. He’s wanted it so badly he, at times, could almost feel the weight of the royal robe around his shoulders. He’s listened long enough, he could almost hear the cheers and applause of the people in the streets as his name is proclaimed through the city… “This is what is done for the man the king delights to honor!”
Oh yes, this was a dream Haman had dreamt many of times. Now, finally it was about to come true! “Of course the king wants to honor me. I serve him the most, the best! Why would he want to honor anyone else, except me?”
Haman lived in a world of “I’s” and “Me’s”…he was his own best admirer.
He may have been a man of wealth, but his heart longed for something money couldn’t buy… honor.
Did you notice how many times he mentions the word “honor” when he describes what should be done for this special person? If not, let’s take a closer look:
Now Haman thought to himself, “Who is there that the king would rather honor than me?” So he answered the king, “For the man the king delights to honor, have them bring a royal robe the king has worn and a horse the king has ridden, one with a royal crest placed on its head. Then let the robe and horse be entrusted to one of the king’s most noble princes. Let them robe the man the king delights to honor, and lead him on the horse through the city streets, proclaiming before him, ‘This is what is done for the man the king delights to honor!'”
Know anyone like this?
“This is the guy who talks about how much money he makes, how many kids he has, how necessary he is to the king, how important he is.” – Charles Swindoll
And no sooner do the words leave his mouth as he finishes sharing his dream of all dreams with the king, when we get to see God’s sense of humor in our story… “Go at once,” the king commanded Haman. “Get the robe and the horse…”
This moment may have been five years in the making, but it was well worth the wait.
You see, Haman was full of himself and God was getting ready to shrink his head size down a little… if you know what I mean.
In Romans 12:3 we are urged not to think of ourselves more highly than we ought, but rather think of ourselves with sober judgment, in accordance with the measure of faith God has given us. In other words, don’t be prideful.
“Pride is a state of the heart that, sooner or later, is betrayed by the mouth.”- Beth Moore
Isn’t that true in Haman’s case today! The pride that has been bubbling up in his heart finally spills out like an overflowing bathtub with too much Mr. Bubbles in it. (Please tell me I’m not the only one who has experienced this!) The sight just isn’t pretty. It’s messy.
Pride flows from Haman’s heart through his mouth and he’s about to have a royal mess to clean up.
You see, sweet friend, it’s not that Haman thought well of himself – it’s that he thought a little too well of himself. His identity wasn’t grounded in Christ, but rather in who he (Haman) was and what he did. His identity was grounded in what the world valued rather than what God valued. He preferred to be honored in front of men, not in the eyes of God.
And we are about to see such an amazing contrast with Mordecai. So hang tight for tomorrow’s reading – it’s one of my favorite parts of this whole story!
For today, realize this truth. God doesn’t call us to poor self-esteem. Rather, He wants us to find our self worth not in what we do but rather in whose we are. Our self worth is found in our identity in Christ, and in Him alone.
Let’s stop living for the applause of many and instead live for the applause of the only one who truly matters anyway. May our dreams be different from those of the Haman’s of this world. May our lives not be about “us,” “me,” or “I,” but only about Him… Not for our honor, but for His.
Love God Greatly!